I graduated from my counselling studies in 2009 and spent a year or so creating what was to be my private practice. I thoroughly enjoyed the process of deciding how I wanted to present my new business to the world. I received feedback that I had a fantastic niche. I found a name and branding colours I felt aligned with, I designed a logo with a graphic artist, I came up with a tag line, poured many long hours into building my own website, moved to Victoria, advertised, rented office space, and in 2010 "Living Radiance Wellness Services" welcomed its first clients. Quite an accomplishment. I was proud.
Recently, some four years later, after several geographical shifts and many beginnings and endings, the outfit of "Living Radiance Wellness Services" was no longer what I wanted to wear. Like a once favorite dress, now hanging in the back of the closet, it just didn't feel quite right anymore. In 2009 I had been passionately pursuing a path of conscious eating and raw food, and my business had been viewed and created through this lens. It looked amazing! And at that time, it felt like it was exactly what I was about.... healthful eating and living, relationships with food, transition to a plant based diet.
When I returned from a training and powerful pilgrimage to Europe in late September, I could feel that I was ready. I sat down at my computer and became curious about what wanted to happen. I breathed, I wondered, I mused.....then in one electrifying moment, I let go.................. I found new colours that excited me and fonts that flowed. I added new images that seemed to speak to what was moving within me. Effortlessly it came together. Gradually the old green and orange website transformed into what you see today........ Ahhh!! Hitting that publish button was like what jumping off a very high cliff must feel like; intensely frightening and invigorating at the same time. Empowering too, for if I can jump off this cliff, what is stopping me from jumping off the next, and the next...? (Admittedly, I am a bit of an edgewalker, and hanging out on cliffs is something I've spent a lot of my time doing. Alas, that is another story.........................)
Perhaps my life is my personal Transformation Game. Will I surrender and trust as the mysterious unfolding of divinity and destiny moves me along my path? How do I prepare, not knowing whether today will hold insights, or setbacks, or a bit of both? And what's my intention for play? The freedom I have found within the sometimes dizzying spin of the transforming motion is that there is something at the core of it all that doesn't change. While I whirl and twirl through transitions and identities, moving through decades and countries and relationships and jobs, sometimes at a speed which seems frivolous, I'm grateful to be in touch with a deeper Truth. This place of Truth is an inner presence that witnesses all; the elation, the sorrow, the magic, the ache. So, when Treena swears she can't make the decision or feel the grief or move through the pain, when she doesn't believe she's worthy, or when it's too frightening to commit and running seems like the only option, this Presence reminds her that at the same time as nothing is okay, everything is always okay. Ah, what a paradox. And what a sweet relief.
~Thank you for reading! Please visit the other pages on my website to see all of my new offerings. And, stay tuned for more on my journey to Portugal for the "Transformation Game Solo Training".